New Awareness

The sound of my alarm clock buzzes at me from the dark,
Off into the distance I can hear a strange dog bark.
I reach to turn the buzzing off but hit the snooze instead,
And then I slowly roll back over staying there in bed.

My thoughts come flooding back again from deep in my sublime,
Reality comes racing back to where I am in time.
As my thoughts arrange themselves and my head starts to clear,
I once again think of the things that caused this country fear.

I slowly rise to meet the day and now I must get dressed,
But I can't put my finger on just what has me depressed.
What happened now has taken place and we must all move on,
But something in my life is missing; something is just gone.

Why do I feel like I've been robbed of something very dear?
Why do I feel so violated as I'm standing here?
Has my life been so fast paced that I ran day to day?
Never stopping to enjoy it while along the way?

Have I taken life for granted thinking selfishly?
All that was important were the things concerning me?
As I think about the news of modern world events,
Nothing that I piece together seems to make much sense.

All I know is everything has changed so drastically,
All the world is different as it changed for you and me.
In my heart I know that it will never be the same,
Maybe that is why I feel this deep depressing pain.

As I stand in silence looking at the rising sun,
Thinking of the new age that for us has just begun.
Life as we have known it is a thing now in the past,
We have lived a long time thinking it would always last.

Millions feel the way I do I know I'm not alone,
Many at this very moment are inside their home,
Watching as the sun appears in the distant sky,
And like me they still are searching for a reason why.

I see through different eyes today much clearer than before,
And wonder what the future holds as we've been forced to war.
I guess it makes us understand as we go on our way,
We need to be more grateful for the things we have today.

Maybe I am letting my emotions take control,
Or maybe something has awakened in my inner soul.
But today the sun seems brighter as it shines on me.
Could it be I realize what it means to be free?

[ by James A. Kisner © 2001 (PoppyK1@aol.com) -- {used with permission} ]