I Saw Jesus - The Vision
I had not been to church for many years, but I had been
feeling a strong calling from Jesus. I could feel myself drawing
closer to Him.
Suddenly, I felt like church was the place where I might be
closest to Him. I just had a feeling that if I made the effort to
go, something special would happen to me, and He would be there.
What exactly would happen, I wasn't sure, but I had no idea how
important this one visit to a new church would be for me, or how
profoundly my life would be affected from that day on.
We arrived at the church, and right away we heard the
most beautiful music coming from inside. Later, we listened as
the minister preached his sermon. Somewhere in the middle of his
sermon, he asked the question, What is the mountain in your
life? He told us to take a few minutes to meditate about it.
I began to meditate along with the rest of the congregation.
I reflected on things from my past right up to the present. I
thought about things I had not been able to overcome in my life.
My biggest Mountain was definitely the lack of forgiveness I
felt for people who I thought had hurt me or wronged me in some
way. I could easily walk out of people s lives, and hold a grudge
for twenty years or for the rest of my life for that matter.
As I thought about these things, I thought about how others
had been hurtful towards me in my life. I felt a deep wrenching
pain in my heart, even physical pain as though my heart was being
squeezed tight in my chest. Still carrying deep pain as I did,
seemed to make it impossible to be forgiving. I bowed my head. I
knew what the Bible says about forgiveness, and I thought, Jesus
is probably mad at me.
Still feeling the pain in my heart, a thought suddenly came
into my mind. I thought, "Look for the face of Jesus." I had
read that somewhere, but I didn't think I would literally see
him. If I did, I was sure He would come condemning me.
As I was thinking I should look for his face, I raised my
eyes, and I couldn't have been more surprised by what I saw. I
saw Jesus! He was actually there. I saw only his face, and
shoulders, but He was alive, and moving around. He had dark,
shoulder length hair with light streaks of gray, and He was
wearing a crown of thorns. I just gazed up at Him, and He was
smiling at me with the most loving smile I had ever seen in my
The first thing I thought was, He looks a little different
than He does in his pictures, but only slightly different. I had
expected his hair to be longer, and his nose was a little
different. There was something about his eyes, and the way he
looked at me. It was like pure joy shinned outward from his eyes
that He was able to show Himself to me, and to allow me to feel
the love that He had for me. I also felt that He received joy
just by being in my presence.
I felt no condemnation from Him at all as my gaze settled
on His smile, and that greatly surprised me. Next, I felt Him
sending me love that was full of sympathy and compassion. It was
as if I could actually feel his feelings, and I began to
experience an overwhelming kind of love that I was sure human
beings aren't capable of.
I was in awe that He could love me that much. It was blissful,
and I was totally absorbed by that love, to the point where I
felt my heart could burst. I have never felt anything like it,
and I m sure that I never will as long as I m on the earth.
There aren't adequate words in the English language to describe
the magnificence of Him, but He was wonderful, and I just
continued to gaze up at Him, fearful if I took my eyes off of Him
He may vanish.
He continued to smile at me like I was the only person in that
room, like I was the only person on earth who mattered to Him,
though I'm sure He must look at each one of us that way.
Throughout the whole vision, He never once took his eyes off of
me or stopped smiling at me.
Next, I saw Him sending beams of transparent, white light
towards my heart. I felt the light penetrating my being. The
light felt like nothing, other than pure love and compassion.
Jesus was very kind and loving towards me, not condemning at all.
I only sensed a strong out pouring of love from Him. He seemed
perfect in his goodness and kindness. The best word I can think
of to describe the goodness I sensed in Him is holy.
Next He began to communicate to me, but no words were used. He
communicated by sending me feelings. It was like telepathy, but
it wasn't just an exchange of information. I understood as if He
was speaking in sentences like we use, but there were feelings in
the knowledge. I could understand his words as well as feel his
emotions that went along with the words. I understood easily and
clearly as it was transferred into my mind.
He said that He already knew about it all, my lack of
forgiveness towards others. He also knew about how I had been
hurt by other people, and the circumstances in my life that had
made me feel that way. He said, I know everything about you.
I thought to myself, Wow! I can t believe He knows everything
about me! This new knowledge surprised me greatly, but I also
felt comforted by it. I had always felt invisible in His eyes. It
meant that He had never been far from me like I had always
thought. I realized that I had been constantly under his
supervision, like when our own children are small, and we never
let them out of our eyesight.
Before I had thought that He had too many people to watch
over to concern Himself with me, and there was even a possibility
that He didn't even know that I existed.
Suddenly, I felt like I could get up and run from the church,
and shout to the world, "He can see me! He can see me!" I
understood that He has been with me my entire life from the
beginning, and I felt certain that it is true for everyone else
Again, I felt more compassion from Him pouring out to me. He
said, I feel your pain. I grieve with you. I felt like I could
feel what was in his heart, and my sadness made Him sad also.
Upon hearing those words, something stirred deep in my heart, and
I fought hard to stem the flow of tears that threatened to fall.
He was able to feel my feelings, and I was able to feel His, a
perfect exchange of understanding between the two of us.
At that moment, He didn't seem concerned with my sin. He only
exuded a deep concern for me and for the pain I had experienced
because of others. He was like a loving parent who picked me up
when I was hurting, and held me in his loving arms. Just as the
Bible says, I felt that His only intention was to comfort me, and
wipe away all of my tears. I actually felt like I had been
comforted, and held in the arms of Jesus.
After He comforted me, He spoke again. He told me not to worry
or concern myself with these things, because He would take care
of it for me. I sensed an incredible strength in Him, and I found
myself in awe of the power He possessed. I could literally feel
Him lift my burdens as if they had rested upon my shoulders, and
I felt like He could easily carry them all.
We have all been taught about the meek and humble man, but He
exuded super-human strength that was clearly not of this earth,
and it was indescribable. I could literally feel his power as it
radiated off of Him.
I was still looking at Him. I was still surprised by some of
the things that He said. He was still looking at me. He still
wore that loving smile on his face that would melt the heart of
the worst hardened sinner. He was still sending me love, and it
was to over flowing. There was so much love that I felt like my
heart couldn't hold it all, and it may burst if I took in much
more. I began to feel like I couldn't handle it anymore. Maybe
in human form we can t. I don t know.
I think of the pain, torment, and humiliation He endured at
the cross. This type of brutality would have caused many to come
away from the experience with anger, hatred, and resentment, but
clearly not Jesus.
Here He was revealing himself to me, loving me, and even
allowing me to feel what was in his heart. Throughout all of the
cruelty and injustice He had suffered at the hands of evil men,
He never lost his ability for kindness, or compassion, or his
ability to love, and to love fully with his whole heart.
Seeing all of the goodness and purity in Him, I felt like I
may break down into tears and sobs. I started to feel unworthy of
his pure holiness. He was a soul at the highest level of
perfection. I felt unworthy of Him, of his purity, and I thought
about my own imperfections. During the whole vision, I had been
afraid that if I looked away, He would be gone. Now, I purposely
looked away. I couldn't bear the thought of my imperfections in
the presence of his Holiness. Freewill came into play. He
understood my feelings. I couldn't bear to see anymore, and He
When I looked back, He wasn't there anymore, but I wasn't
disappointed. I was left with a feeling of total awe! Jesus had
been there. I had seen Him. I had felt Him. He had communicated
The thing I was left knowing, above everything else, was that
He loved me more than anyone had ever loved me in my life! He
wasn't to be compared with a normal man, because his knowledge
goes far beyond anything we can imagine. He understood me
completely, like no earthly human being ever could.
For a while after, I wondered why He had not condemned me,
but after much soul searching and pouring over the scriptures. I
believe Him to be very protective over those that are his. He
doesn't just love us because He is our savior, and we are his
responsibility. I realized that would only be a shallow type of
love. I now understand that He loves each one of us on a personal
level. He loves us deeply and passionately, the same way we love Him.
I had sought to know Him with my whole heart and soul, and
He had not disappointed me. He had restored in my spirit a
willingness to forgive, because love cancels out anger, fear,
resentment, and any other negative emotion you can imagine.
I remembered that He had worn the crown of thorns in my
vision. I now realize that they were meant to be symbolic, a
reminder to me of how He loved us all enough to be lifted up, and
crucified on the cross for the forgiveness of our sins. The crown
of thorns is a symbol of his love that He feels for each one of
I saw Jesus over a year ago in that church, and I never forgot
the love and compassion He showed towards me. He was not like any
human being I ever met, and I know my encounter with Jesus will
stay with me the rest of the days of my life.
~ Karen Templin ~
Karen's book, "A Glimpse Of Heaven," can be ordered at Barnes & Nobel, Books A Million, or Amazon.com.
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